IN VICINITY OF LOVE

Still at the resort.. and the ocean was angry that evening; reflecting and mirroring the anger of the sky and the lonely stars.. dark it was.. loud it also was .. the waves were loud.. the voice inside of his head was very very loud; one voice echoing all voices that were tormenting him for the past ten years or so of his life.. demonized voices whip lashing a back he illusioned himself he grew stronger over the years.. he was wrong ! Obviously wrong..

He started sobbing when she walked in after finishing with her evening shower ..

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A couple of month's had passed since his little one's death.. shattered he was.. It is an amplified version of misery to feel you've lost your son; your marriage; and your peace of mind..

He was deeply day-dreaming in the huge arm-chair by the bedroom's window overlooking the beach; indulged in his 2nd pack of cigarrettes and his 3rd glass of drink; she walked lightly into the resort's suite where they were staying for a week after getting few items from the resort's gift shop.. As she placed the bag on the bed, she moved swiftly towards him and placed her widely open arms around his shoulders and started printing gentle kisses on his forehead.. She took away the glass from his hands while he was hugging her back and had a sip of it before she placed it on the table.. she grabbed his hands and walked him side by side to the bed..

His days were tormenting him.. she was his shore of relief.. an outstanding wave-breaker.. utilizing all forces of love she has for him.. he was effortlessly submissive to her care; comforted by her warm lap not only every single night but every single moment he was pulled down to the underground by his recent loss..

Love it was.. love it is.. she believed in him.. he believed in her.. they were so much into each other; and yes it was mutual.. very mutual indeed; a rhythmic dance it was; one spirit .. two physical bodies uniting at the time of love-making; giving the act a different spiritual dimension where you would be able to live and feel every fraction of a second of those bonding moments..

Still sad he was.. comforting she was..

Beautiful was the beggening.. the question is, is this magnificant love going to withstand the coming challenges of their days ? Is life holding for both of them what they can sustain.. what their unmistakable love can sustain ?

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Wrapped and trapped in my coffin of loneliness; silence and despair.. you heard my sad echo .. I want you to undo this forced process on me.. I want you to un-coffin me.. my lover..

It is heavily raining out there.. I see nothing but huge ageless trees.. green it is.. naked your heart is.. and it is heavily raining in here as well..

My hand you grabbed.. tight your grip was.. slow your pace was.. fast the moment decided to be.. and it was still raining out there.. my lover

Under the tree we relocated ourselves .. drenched by those pearls of rain.. you started pulling my coffin away.. bit by bit.. and I was whirling on my spot as you were undressing my ageless shell under that ageless tree.. naked my heart became..

I stepped out of my cold skin as you approached me with the warmest of hugs and the finest of touches .. I lost myself to you.. my lover..

My nakedness was mirror-imaging yours.. and it is still raining out there .. and it is raining in here ..

It is green out there.. my loneliness you killed forever.. my silence is shouting out loud the birth of our love .. the despair is diminutive now compared to the historical kiss we are infusing into each others' soul.. my lover..

And I find my coffin dropped down on the wet grass as me and you are walking away under the rain.. hand in hand.. with naked hearts..

And yes the grip was firm.. and it is green out there .. and it is still raining..

Coffinless I am .. my lover

" May I have the bill please ? " He asked the waitress ..

" Enjoy the rest of your evening sir " said the waitress as she placed the bill on the table..

" Sir this is the hospital calling.. we need you to come as soon as possible.. we are afraid your son is decompensating.. he started to deteriorate all of a sudden few minutes ago.. "

Fear forced itself as an unwanted guest as he went into a trance this time .. scared he became..

( episode-6 to follow soon)

Holding her soft hands.. a shy smile found its way to her shyer face and resided there between her rosy cheeks and it felt like the smile was dwelling there for the past centuries and will still stay there for centuries to come.. That's what happens usually when a woman's heart smiles.. it carves beauty on her rigidity and it transforms her into the statue of Aphrodite ! Their eyes started dancing a love tango .. and as his grip became firmer non-intentionally; a wave of heat found its way to her deeply hidden emotional recesses and started injecting life into the statue of Aphrodite as it was transforming it into a real and living Aphrodite !

She was literally blossoming in his hands.. he was growing in pride mesmerized by the effect of their conscious moments on each other .. he felt completely exposed to her and so he whispered softly " Be my journal please " .. she whispered back smartly in an almost unheard voice as if she didn't believe what she was about to say " Be my pen please " !

"Allow me " he asked her and without waiting for her reply he raised her hands towards his face and stamped them with a gentle kiss .. she did not withdraw; instead she gave him a very confident and calm look; the very first look that attracted him to her in the first place.. then he rested his head with a little tilt on her palms.. she could not help but reciprocate with him and so she rubbed his rough cheek bone with her softer fingers.. he asked her while emitting more heat in her passionate palms " The tradition goes by talking about misfortunes and miseries first.. should we follow it ? Or should we feel each other's pain first ? " She answered him without any hesitation and with more confidence this time " I thought we exchanged our pain chapters silently while flying ! "

He couldn't resist letting out a smile.. a peaceful one as he could feel his rigid pain loosing its substance as it was liquefying in her presence.. When a man's heart smile; he transforms into a mass of peaceful energy; and he starts sharing his new transformation with the entire universe without even knowing it !

And an ever delicate conversation found its way between their thirsty lips for each other:

She: " How is your son doing ? "
He: " Not very well really.. as you might have heard; he was born with excessive fluid in his brain requiring external drainage with tubes which need to be changed from time to time.. and once in a while the tubes will get infected; and that's what he's been suffering lately.. a major infection in his brain "
She: " I'm so sorry to hear about this.. Anything I can do to help ? "
He: " No.. thanks dear.. just pray for him.. he's not doing that great this time.. Doctors are saying the responsible bugs are becoming resistant to the Antibiotic regimen he's on.. he's hospitalized in the intensive care unit " .. and a drop of tear found its way down his cheek.. she stopped its flow with her fingers and re-positioned her chair so she would be closer to him.. She held his hands this time..
He: while shifting his gaze as if he's staring at those friendly clouds he's so used to while flying: " I don't know whether I made the right decision when I insisted not to terminate my wife's pregnancy as his condition was diagnosed during pregnancy and the doctors offered termination as an option given all the suffering such children go through "
She: " Well I don't know what to say.. but I'm sure it was a mutual decision between you and your wife "
He: " No not at all.. she wanted to end the pregnancy.. and I insisted on keeping it.. I got attached to him the moment I knew I would have a child " .. " If anything.. having him managed to increase the gap between us.. but I love him.. he's part of me.. he looks like me.. and he's very much in need of great care that I would not mind offering all my life "
She: " I'm sorry again.. I'm sure it's not easy at all what you're going through "
He: " And the gap between us grew to become an ocean.. she's not a bad person but she could not stop blaming me for giving her a sick child.. she filed for divorce few months ago and she left our home and went back to her parents " .. his gaze then left the clouds and came back to their ambiance..
She: " Oh dear.. "

He regained his composure and called the waitress..

Meanwhile he placed his hands back on her hands again.. the grip was shaky initially as he was still emotional.. and gradually the shakiness got replaced with his inner heat and irresistable longing for her ..

She became shy again..

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He greeted her with joy.. opened his car door for her like any gentleman would do and drove her in complete silence, as he was lost in his thoughts and she was so too, to a 5-star hotel's lounge, it was the Fairmont " We'll have our coffee here; they have a nice cozy snack bar.. it suites my age I guess " looking at her eyes to see how she would react to the age part of it as the thought of their age difference was haunting him. She answered him smartly " Only unique people go to classy places I guess.. beside, you're just 50 and not double that " .. they laughed as he was pulling over.

He walked her to the place with his eyes that he could not take off of her; his arm guiding her shoulder .. he was deeply into her with every inch of his being although it has only been 18 days since she joined his piloting classes.. there was this unexplained irresistible magnet about her and around her that he just could not help but be a worshiping moon in her planet.. and likewise, there was this deep since of comfort in his presence that she would not mind using him as her evening pillow and as her shoulders to cry on.. it was mutual as any real love was and as any real love should be.. but for now it belonged to the majesty of silence.. it belonged to the glory of the unspoken language which has its own way of amplifying feelings in no time for when passion is translated into a spoken language of human beings; it looses more than half of its magical bonding power.. history marks that lovers stop feeding their love when it is taken for granted; there has to be something to keep the hunger alive and only smart people can master this and yes as it is mutual love it has to be a mutual hunger as well !

A soothing silence was their escort.. he chose a table in a hidden corner so to minimize distraction.. helped her out with her jacket and pulled a journal from his jacket as he was taking it off.. Buddha Bar music was playing in the background easing their natural tension being with each other for the first time.. After taking their seats; they started paying attention to each others facial features while keeping their gazes fixed to each others and smiling .. he was darkly tanned; dark-brown eyes and dark-brown hair with silvery streaks on the sides; shaved; with deep folds bracketing his thin lips; he was tall and lean and above all, he smelled like a man and carried himself like a mature man full of masculinity.. She, facing him on that small table, had a fair complexion; big intense hazel eyes; semi-full lips and a full-of-life smile; curvy but not over-weight and she was only few inches shorter than he was; and above all she smelled like a woman and carried herself like a blossomed woman.. " Do you mind if I choose your coffee and your desert ? " He asked her softly.. " No not at all, you know the place better than me and I think I would trust your taste " She answered him while his question was still tickling her senses thinking to herself " What else would he choose for me " ! His second offer followed " How about a dark chocolate cake as well.. it's really good.. it's mouth-watering.. trust me " .. she answered " I never say no to such a seductive offer.. so dark chocolate let it be .. are you reading my mind or what ? " He goes " No, but for sure I'll give it a try if you would allow me to" saying it with a smile full of million meanings..

" What's that journal for ? " She asked him looking at the small light-green book displayed on the table in front of him.. " you can leaf through it if you want .. bits and pieces of my mind " he answered her while handing it to her.. " Really, you wouldn't mind ? " She asked knowing deep inside that he would not as he brought it with him on purpose..

And with her delicate soft fingers; she turned the first page; and it read " And I could feel my conscious-being merging with my subconscious-being.. making divine love to each other; I could see my soul being born again as it is now soaring freely in my skies " .. She closed the book and stared at him with an awe " This is really beautiful.. I mean it.. it is very beautiful and real.. I love it " .. he smiled back at her being pleased that she started connecting to him.. and he asked her " How many sugar cubes do you take ? " as the coffee arrived at the table.. " two please .. but I mean it.. it is a wonderful piece of your mind " .. his smile now was growing bigger being flattered by her complement.. " well, thank you.. I'm glad you liked it " .. She opened the journal again while sipping her coffee " Oh.. the coffee is amazing.. but I still have to sip on what you've written one more time.. let me read it loud this time .. And I could feel my conscious-being merging with my subconscious-being.. making divine love to each other; I could see my soul being born again as it is now soaring freely in my skies " .. " Your words taste as good as this chocolate cake I have to admit ".. He couldn't help but laugh this time after her last comment " You know what? I could sense you're a good writer as well ".. she answered him with a shy smile " well, I try sometimes to pin down bits and pieces of my mind as well in my journal " .. " Do you want to read my second page then ? " he asked her eagerly while giving her a warm glance .. She spontaneously flipped through it and it read " And when I get killed by the thoughts that distance up apart.. I find myself doing nothing but infusing powerfully my passionate love into your calling lips ".. She couldn't help it but read this sentence one more time but silently and slowly this time as it touched her deeply; he was watching her reaction carefully.. she got his massage but to hide her shakiness and to add more control to the situation as she felt he was taking her by the minute she said to him while looking at him warmly " Well, this is a bit sad.. but you know what ? having a bigger bite of this chocolate might help ".. and they both had a bigger bite of the delicious chocolate cake and laughed with their seducing gazes bonding deeply this time..

A moment of silence broke their laughter as Buddha Bar music was intensifying in the background.. those bonding moments dictated an irresistible act from his side.. he stretched both of his arms towards her face; touched her soft cheeks gently with his palms before he landed them lightly and gently over her hands which was holding the journal tightly on the table as if she was afraid someone would steel those nicely written feelings away from her..

" Would you give me the honor of holding your hands while talking to you ? " He said to her..

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And it felt like she has an ancient delicately decorated treasure box to unlock.. unlock those 50-years of marvels; stories; travels and what distinguished highly-achieving characters like him keep locked in boxes usually for the fear of misjudgment !

" Would I be able to walk through his maze without being lost or scared ? " she thought to herself while looking at her naked curvy ivory shy body in the bath-room's misty mirror after taking a warm shower that afternoon.. touching softly her firm breasts with her wet fingers; she thought to herself " Would he be gentle and humane while touching and caressing them if the occasion arises ? or else he will take advantage of them and then walk out on them like other wolves I had met have done so far ? " She put on her bath robe and ran out into her bed-room as her phone started ringing.. it was him reminding her of their coffee plans.. " Where do you want me to meet you for coffee ? " she asked him while throwing herself on her king-size comfy bed in an excitement that she was fighting to hide.. " I'll pick you up from your place at 6:00 pm, how is that ? " he offered with a warm voice.. " That would be great .. thank you.. I'll be ready at 6 ".. She stayed mummified in that supine posture in her bed for few minutes afterwards; staring at nothing but the ceiling; thinking of nothing but how to wear her make-up and her hair; listening to nothing but her pounding heart beats; sensing nothing but her womanly insecurities " Would I disappoint him after I start unlocking my own treasure box ? What would be the best strategy here.. should I make him feel I gave him my box's keys or should I just be a big mouth ? How much should I disclose ? Should I reciprocate completely or is it too early to show spontaneity now ? "

Lost in her haunting thoughts; she felt she was in a trance.. an hour passed and the phone rang again " Hi.. I thought I'll let you know I just left my place; I'll be in front of your building in about 15 minutes or so .. are you ready ? ".. She answered him back while still in her bath-robe" Yes I'm ready.. see you soon "

"All that excitement and I'm still in bed.. I can't believe me !" she started moving fast now as she felt the clock was ticking; she could even hear it loud in her mind second by second.. she dried her short auburn hair in less than 5 minutes; and started getting dressed: the outfit was a dark blue boot-cut jeans and a black fluffy chashmere sweater.. stood in front of the mirror again; this time staring at her rushing eyes and at her semi-full lips " I think a brown eye-liner with a black mascara; a dark peach lipstick and a bronze blush would do and I'm wearing my hair down ".. this much she was attentive to details.. " l will just be myself " she thought to herself " It's just coffee.. and I'm keeping my breasts hidden behind bras for now " .. she laughed at her thoughts and left her apartment after 13 minutes.. she's on her way to mature as a real pilot and that's when time management becomes second nature..

In the elevator now.. and by herself.. the moment the door was closing; she faced the wall- attached mirror and pulled out a travel size hair brush and was re-touching her hair.. " Ooh.. now I can relax.. nice smile please to yourself " and the door opened again.. exiting this time with so much calm and confidence; walking with firm steps that you wouldn't believe how swift were her moves few minutes ago while getting ready !

" He's not unlocking my treasure box until I unlock his " she thought to herself while walking towards his car.. this time her eyes were seductively smiling.. wearing her natural attractive aura again..

" Hi " She said to him the moment her dreamy eyes met his wondering ones ..

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A gentle kiss was born in my soul tonight..
And I'm praying it will reach adulthood on the streets and corners of your lips also tonight.. a deviant kiss.. so let it be !
The private thought of you is tickling my wild senses.. my feminine senses to be more specific ! And I'm still praying in your temple for my gentle kiss to be deviant on your lips.. in your lap.. guided by your hungry eyes !
Erupting sensuality on my side; erupting masculinity on your side..let us write a historical chapter in the book of passion..
As advertised my love, the very woman inside of me; is the creation of your gentle touch and softly whispers .. created for you only..
And for no one else but you..
Ready for our bonding kiss ?!

And as he took his seat next to her in the plane's cockpit, which was a small commercial jet, he took as well a glance of her flying gaze; the gaze that drew him to her in the first place the minute she joined his piloting classes. Wearing a natural woman's scent; being full of life with all what life has to offer; encasing herself with an attractive calm aura.. he found himself no where else but being taken captive in her irresistible self and persona. " I hope she wouldn't mind the 50 years that is marking history on my face " he thought to himself as he said to her loudly " Ready for the ride ? ", she looked him deeply into his wondering eyes and answered back with a lavish expressive smile " Ready for the ride sir " thinking to herself " It feels so comfortable in here " , and the plane took off..

Moments of silence imposing itself on them while taking off.. he was silently going back to his unstable marriage and his handicapped 8 year-old only child; while she was silently going back to her childhood with all physical and emotional abuse her father had inflicted on her given his unstable financial life .. and as they crossed clouds; she broke that turbulent silence by saying with joy while letting an imprisoned breath out " Ooh this is so liberating.. I belong to the skies, this is my home, this is where I belong, I want to master flying.. give it to me and I'll owe you my life " .. he laughed at her innocent enthusiasm and answered her with half a smile that spoke of his hidden intentions " Done deal, as long as you keep your promise of giving me your life " his masculine laughter followed his comment .. On the contrary, as her soul was flying and flying away enjoying every single second of liberation, his soul was still deeply rooted in Earth; seeded by his unique determination and strong personality, he needed to focus and so he wasn't flying.. his flying instructions then followed, inter-mixed with mutual teasing and laughter ..

And in an hour, which seemed like a year of joy to him, they landed as the piloting session was over.. he extended his arms to hers as he helped her out of the anterior tight compartment.. walking together on the tarmac; she felt she was back to Earth but sensed her steps were very light as a portion of that heavy burden was killed.. for him, he couldn't feel his steps as his soul started flying now.. " Coffee ? " he offered her, " I wouldn't say no I think.. coffee "

( 2nd episode to follow )